The Dark Night of the Soul - Welcome to the mess #39

littlehappymess

Hello beautiful people,
I hope you are doing well.
*TRIGGER WARNING* in this episode I talk about suicidal thoughts, so don't listen to it if you don't feel up to it.
My life is complete mess right now and I usually go into "hiding" when that happens.
I realized that whenever I do something in life that does not align with my own values and beliefs but rather what I think other people or society expect from me my body and psyche send me "friendly" reminders that I need to get back into doing what truly fulfills me and serves my purpose.
I have been ignoring those reminders successfully for quite some time and am grateful for the transformation process I am undergoing right now, even if it is extremely painful and very messy.
In this episode I share my feelings and am very honest about the pain I am experiencing because I know that I am not the only person feeling this way and I find that it helps to know we are not alone in our pain.
I still haven't figured all this out but the principle of the dark night of the soul helps me to understand the process I am going through right now. A new version of myself is unfolding right now and all I can do is embrace the pain and keep showing up for life, even if the smallest things that usually come to me with ease, are incredibly difficult to do.
What keeps me pushing through all that is my purpose. I know that if I can push through my pain, everybody else struggling with suicidal thoughts can do so as well.
Further Material:
Here is more:

1. Episode on Gaia - the one I mention while talking
2. Short article from the Ram Dass Foundation on the Dark night of the Soul
3. Book about the dark night of the soul and St. John of the cross

You can try Gaia for free for 7 days and I am not sponsored by them, I just really enjoy there series and documentaries on spirituality, growth and quantum physics :-)

Hang in there, pain pushes until vision pulls. Don't loose hope, you got this and you are never alone.
Seek out help, there is so many amazing people out there who do incredible healing work, be it psychotherapists, coaches and energy healers.
Some self promoting right there: I offer counseling sessions as well, I am a certified healer, in german "Energetikerin". I have undergone a german education to become a certified "psychologische Beraterin" in Germany.
Give me another 2 weeks to recover and get back on my feet :-)
Feel free to contact me any time though and we can find an appointment that suits us.

You find more information on my Website: https://littlehappymess.com/counseling/
If you struggle with suicidal thoughts and cannot find your way out, don't wait up, get help! Call an ambulance if needed to bring you to the nearest hospital.
Emergency calls:
In most countries either 112 or 911.
Suicidal hotlines:
In your Whatsapp Help Center you find the suicide hotlines for your countries.
If you're country is not listed on Whatsapp, you can visit the website Suicidestop.
I am sending you all the love in my heart, hang in there, never give up!
All the love,
Nina